I ams what I ams…

Sunday, June 1, 2008| by Will Chen

I’ve received a little bit of flack via e-mail and on forums accusing me of having some kind of agenda, being a shill for the gear manufacturers we review, ignoring flaws, being too harsh, and even flat out lying regarding the reviews. There have been a fair amount of requests for me to “prove” my credentials. So, I sat down and started writing my bio and a subtle sadness came over me.

As a teen, I spent a fair amount of time dreaming I was Ace Frehley (as you all know, Kiss is the coolest band ever). I would stand in front of a mirror with a guitar strapped on, swinging my shoulder length hair around, and dream I was performing to sold-out crowds in Madison Square Garden. I even pondered what makeup design I would choose if I ever joined their band.

Where has all the time gone? It seems just like yesterday I was learning chords on my barely playable Series 10 Strat copy into a cheap set of powered stereo speakers. It was a very hard pill to swallow when Floodwaters (read more in my bio) broke up. I had put so much of myself into that band that it really felt like I died a little bit.

A sour point in my life immediately followed; I was bitter, depressed, and full of anger and regret. Thank God my precious wife stuck by me through all my foolishness. I have few regrets in life now, other than this relatively brief time frame where, to some degree, I stopped living and wasted precious time which I’ll never get back…

Now, I stare into the mirror at my exponentially multiplying crow’s feet every morning around 6 AM, after shaving my head in the shower and quietly getting ready for work (no, this site isn’t my full time job…yet) so I don’t wake up my 2 year old son. However, I can still see the rock star within in the mirror of my son’s eyes when I’m playing guitar and singing him the “ABC” song. His and my wife’s adoring gaze is the most inspirational crowd I’ll ever play for…

I guess what I’m saying is nothing new; carpe dium, live each day as if it were your last, blah, blah, blah…

If I’ve learned anything in my life, it’s never to be afraid to fail. We all fail sooner or later. How we learn from our failure and adjust to shatter the perceived barriers which caused us to fail in the first place defines who we are. Don’t be afraid to make the wrong choice. As Geddy Lee so eloquently put it, “if we choose not to decide, we still have made a choice”. More often than not, prolonging a decision just makes the decision more difficult. I’m not encouraging hasty decision making. However, there comes a point in which dreaming becomes extremely counter productive.

I do not hide my identity using an anonymous pseudonym and welcome feedback both good and bad. People who know me personally know I like to passionately “discuss” topics and no matter how heated things get, it’s hard to offend me. If you want to know more about who I am, check the new bio page.

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